I haven't posted for a little while. Things have been crazy. Finished up for the year at UC. Missing my "work kids". Made it through mom and dad's 40th Wedding Anniversary party. Just been trying to relax for a while but it doesn't seem to be working.
I am really in need of prayer. I am having a really hard time with Bekah. Her ADHD is kicking my butt. We are now on our 3rd medication and are running out of options now. She has really been acting out in the afternoons. Tantrums left and right. I feel like I am talking to the wall most days. She is very argumentative. I get so frustrated I just want to cry and usually do. I feel so bad for her. She has no control over this disease and when she acts out I have to punish her but it breaks my heart because she doesn't understand. This child has been through so much since she was 3 months old. Constantly sick, always on some kind of medication. She was on Adderall 1st and it really worked for a while, then she started going wild in the evenings and we had to go to 2 a day doses which also worked for a while. Then about 2 months ago it got really worse, screaming all the time, yelling at everyone when she didn't get her way. I chalked it up to age at the time. We went to the Dr. for our regularly scheduled appt. 2 weeks ago and I told her how things were going and she switched her to Vyvanse. Things only got worse and she started complaining of horrible headaches and her legs hurting. I had to take her tylenol to school once and then on Monday it was so bad I had to pick her up from school but luckily I had already made an appt. with the Dr. because her behavior had gotten worse. We talked about all that was going on and she again changed her meds to Strattera. The only thing with it is it can take 4-6 weeks to really become effective. I am really willing to try anything at this point. I just want my happy little girl back. She told me the other evening, "Mommy, I am having a bad day, everyday." It broke my heart. Please pray that this medicine works. I am turning it over to God. I know he will show me what is right, in his time.
There is also alot going on in other areas of my life and God knows all about them too. Nothing too major, but stressful nonetheless.
These are the words to a song called "Stonger" by Mandesa, a contemporary Christian singer. I am holding these words in my heart. I hope it is a blessing to you as well.
Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather
Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares
When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...
Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares
'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this
When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
